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It’s September! why I always start my new diary with counting the months lol. Well, hi.
I’m now sitting in my room besides my bed with my laptop in it, writing this. Feeling lost. Whenever I go for something like nature, I always get recharge my battery. But this time, I don’t feel I get that
I always surrounded by good people with good vibes, and since high school over, it’s kinda hard to find someone, some people like that.
I’m not typical like “GOSH can you believe I went out for social activity for like 3 days and with hot guys on it??” or “OMG I finally talked to him in this social activity and also talked to kids there and they are all so fun and energetic”
I mean, I was but this time is different
I was wanting to have fun for the rest of my day there, but something interrupt me and made me feel bad whole night. I just realized now, I am not a cure for somebody, I need a cure for this body. I can’t be around negative people anymore, negative means they are in negative vibes and spread the negativity by their acts and makes my vibes negative too
I can’t blame anyone for that but I can’t believe I’m mentally weak. I used to be a cure. I used to cured myself faster than ever before nobody notice I need it. 
Also, I hate, ugh, I dislike people that is way too freak out. Like all in sudden they like gasp and talk in panic voice. “OMG where my this” or “Gee where’s my that” and bleh bleh bleh
Am I too sensitive or it’s just me that is spreading the hate and negativity?
I don’t feel good by doing everything at the moment. I didn't attend classes, 3 classes today and didn’t collect my assignments that I haven’t even start yet.
Something’s wrong with me
I’m tired, mentally and emotionally. 

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